Heyy, bloggie! :) it's me again. Wow. And i keep saying 'wow' before i could finally find the right words to express this feeling inside, this whole emotion windwhirls. It's been too long, since the last time i share my story with you. Its so so good to see you again. I'm very happy. i feel like i found my long lost old friend again. Yeah, i know. You're just a blog. Algorithm entity. Program. Matrix. A product of technology in form of a digital journal. One tiny tiny tiny space of this limitless cyber galaxy. But, truth is, you've been always feel like a real person to me. Everytime i wrote something, it felt like i'm writing a letter to someone. Someone who would listens, someone who would understand, someone who would still love you anyway without any judgements. Remember those old days when i told you how my days went, how my dreams were dying, how my life's was going through so many difficult times, and how much i refused to give up? And years laters... those prayers and faiths... are finally answered. He listened. He heard everything i've asked. You wouldnt believe all the things that happened in my life, bloggie... I have a macbook now :D I'm no longer writing you on a broken laptop like i used to ten years ago. And i have a reffrigerator now, loaded with foods. I no longer have to skipped breakfast anymore. And i have my own vehicles now. I dont need to take a long walk just to go to work anymore. And i have my own place to stay now... I dont need to move from place to place anymore. I have everything.i need now, bloggie. And i can buy anything i want, without having my self worrying about tomorrow.
As i finished to read through all those old writings, i finally know why i feel what i felt when i wrote my stories years ago. I actually really did wrote letters. And little did i know, those letters were adressed for someone who lives far far away, and took a very very long time to finally arrived at his doorstep. Letters for my self who lives in the future. A very emotional letters.
There were days where i thought i will never have a bright future. there were days where i thought my dreams slowly fading and my spirit dying. There were days where i thought i will never be good enought to be something that i thought i deserve to be. But in the end, i decided to listened to my heart. I choose to keep believe in my self. I stay faithful to the idea that, i am more than enough to be whatever i want to be. That... i have something spesial inside me, that not everyone has; i am a believer.
This is beyond emotional, to finally start again. To immortalize the story of my journey. in a completely different circumstances, situations, mental states, backgrounds, fullfilments and everything. All is almost the opposite from the place where i first started. But trust me, bloggie. Some things are never really changed. I'm still the same person like who i used to be. Only wiser, taller and more handsome. ;P
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